Thank goodness for soulful women with voices and stories they are willing to share.
I have been dealing with a lot of fear lately. Essentially I am afraid to trust people. I am afraid of letting myself fall in love. Because my entire life the bottom has always fallen out and it’s devastated me. I try to avoid situations that trigger depression…..aka heartbreak. But can you really control whether or not someone breaks your heart. Is living in fear and avoiding things that may potentially bite you in the ass a healthy way to live? Obviously that is a no.
So 2 of my favorite female artists have some wise words to say and I am trying to let them soak in.
“I have learned that fear and love don’t match. I have learned that there truly is nothing unacceptable about me when I have the courage and self-love to accept everything about me…so too will another.” –India.Arie
And then Erykah Badu’s song “Bag Lady”…
Bag lady you gone hurt your back
Dragging all them bags like that
I guess nobody ever told you
All you must hold on to
Is you, is you, is you
One day all them bags gone get in your way
One day all them bags gone get in your way
I said one day all them bags gone get in your way
One Day all them bags gone get in your way
So pack light
Pack light
Pack light
Ooh ooh
Bag lady you gone miss your bus
You can't hurry up
Cause you got too much stuff
When they see you comin
Ni***s take off runnin
From you it's true oh yes they do
One day he gone say you crowdin my space
One day he gone say you crowdin my space
I said one day he gone say you crowdin my space
One day he gone say you crowdin my space
So pack light
Pack light
Pack light
Ooh ooh
Girl I know sometimes it's hard
And we can't let go
Oh when someone hurts you oh so bad inside
You can't deny it you can't stop crying
So oh, oh, oh
If you start breathin
Then you won't believe it
You'll feel so much better
(So much better baby)
Dragging all them bags like that
I guess nobody ever told you
All you must hold on to
Is you, is you, is you
One day all them bags gone get in your way
One day all them bags gone get in your way
I said one day all them bags gone get in your way
One Day all them bags gone get in your way
So pack light
Pack light
Pack light
Ooh ooh
Bag lady you gone miss your bus
You can't hurry up
Cause you got too much stuff
When they see you comin
Ni***s take off runnin
From you it's true oh yes they do
One day he gone say you crowdin my space
One day he gone say you crowdin my space
I said one day he gone say you crowdin my space
One day he gone say you crowdin my space
So pack light
Pack light
Pack light
Ooh ooh
Girl I know sometimes it's hard
And we can't let go
Oh when someone hurts you oh so bad inside
You can't deny it you can't stop crying
So oh, oh, oh
If you start breathin
Then you won't believe it
You'll feel so much better
(So much better baby)
I am a bag lady. I have carried baggage and deep wounds for a very long time. And they are hindering me from moving forward in relationships. I can’t be healthy if I don’t learn to let go of past hurts.
Easier said than done….but I am willing to work on it.
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